Merry Christmas Everyone!
Merry Christmas Everyone!
I have arrived in my hometown,
Lazarus-like, my windshield coated
in the spittle of dead insects and
the fuel gauge hanging around a quarter.
In the rush to return
I forgot my address,
but I found it writ-large
in the space between
the turning windmill and
the steadfast horizon.
Behind lie rows of unkempt almond trees,
a silver-grey rut in Highway 5,
and the sun, rolled away as a stone,
leaving itself behind in the humming haze above the valley.
The latticework exposed
in the shopping center’s signage
upon vacancy hangs
lifeless, like
the scraping away
of the strings and flesh-
golden with the hum
of mid-afternoon sun,
flung lazily through the windshield-
of the sticky body
of a nectarine.
VII. The Wounds
I run
My tongue,
hesitantly,
along my open
knuckles: bubbling blood
from raw asphalt
flecked skin.
it’s not as warm
as I thought
it would be.
that hot life that
endlessly percolates
our veins cools
to a crust in
February air.
I want to be able
to compare it to
something about a thorn
in a lion’s paw,
but it’s not
so sharp as that,
and it definitely
wouldn’t fit in
a kid’s book.
VI. The Impact
Hand hinges back.
Right arm rigid. Burning.
Clang of frame on curb.
Legs snap. Bike lock
bangs into sparks as
teeth clench
and elbows buckle.
V. The Flight
My feet aren’t pressed into the pedals anymore–
in a macabre cartoon mockery they spin
on pistons pressing against air–against nothing–
I’m floating on invisible strings tied to the balloon
of the sun–until the weight of earth snips me from flight
and I’m falling–
I’ve been up here forever–My face now inverted towards
my future embrace with the asphalt–there goes the median
rushing beneath me–and here comes the crunch
IV. The Horn
Defensive Driving 101
Observe the entire situation.
Stay alert to changes.
Realize a problem quick, and
Decide on a safe plan.
Constantly scan the area
For other cars, people
Or bikes.
Use horn when danger arises.
III. The Sidewalk
Mailboxes with those little red flags and
the golden shining characters of the
Davis Chinese Church
and wind whips my jacket behind me and
flowers peeking out from beneath the
apartment complex sign (FOR LEASE
NOW) and the pedal presses
the crank arm spinning
the gear, pulling the
chain, wheels
spinning
turning left, leaving the safety of the white bounds of the bike lane,
turning away from the soft pink of the Chengdu Style Restaurant blinking OPEN
and in front of the black maybe Mustang.
II. The Car
Though I didn’t really get a good look at it, I’m pretty sure it was a Ford Mustang. When I was a kid, I always said my dream car was a Mustang, mostly because my uncle–and other bearded monoliths–always asked me “what’s your dream car?” and I felt I needed to say something sleek, something masculine. Or maybe it was just because I didn’t know many car models. I still don’t. So maybe it wasn’t a Mustang, but it was definitely black. At a glance, it was just that: a black car. But now, racing interminable time trials through my memory, it is a hulking speeding barreling mass of stark contrast. Cutting in one slice through the cold air like a blade, or the shadow of a blade, or the idea of death.
I wrote a seven-part poem about a bike crash last March. Here’s Part I.
I. The Sky
Welcome out-of-
place sun falls soft
through placid clouds
floating friendly over
suburbia and a UPS
truck. And the blue
of the sky is not
the blue of a coming
storm and the white
of the clouds is
Easter Sunday and
its edges are humming
with Spring.